Funny--I was going to title my post here "birthday blues)--but then i decided that was far too cutesy for what i and most adoptees i know go through around our birthdays. Mine is this Sat. Ironically (or not)--I was born on Mother's Day too. I have come a long way--from years ago when I used to spend so many days and weeks and even months preceding my birthday--going through sadness and so many other complex feelings...and yet--still, there are feelings that come up as I approach this day. It is always a tough day to celebrate, even though I eventually do, and know that I want to celebrate that I am here on this planet, even if no one was happy about it the day I was born. That is sad--there ought to be joy and love and celebration when every baby is born. The day my son was born was one of the happiest days of my life. Being the mother to him that I didn't have, has been a full circle kind of healing for me.

I may write more as the weekend approaches. But for now--I guess I just wanted to express some of my feelings, in hopes that some of you might read it and understand. I sometimes feel that only other adoptees can fully understand what it is like.

It would feel good to hear others' words regarding birthday experiences/feelings.

Thanks.